| | Glad that China unblocks xangaland..but still xanga can not work very well for some reason.China really sucks.It blocks myspace and makes a new site called myspace.cn...Why it bans foreign sites?it's so stupid and ridiculous to do this.Anyway hope xangaland works better later.
Mm,it happened too much recently...well,not that many things happened..but again make me so so down.I met a girl from shanghai during the interview in beijing,she's pretty and smart and makes me feel that Im still like a ugly duck.On that very early morning while I was working I suddently felt I might stay here like many other ppl do for the rest of my life,just like them....living life here for the whole life.I feel hopeless.I pretend to be happpy at work,try to smile to everyone I see at work.But inside,I'm so so depressed.
Life is so unpredictable.The more you treasure something,the easier it'll be lost.So maybe just need to take it easy?
I painted a lot days ago,didnt know why...just want my room full of my paintings.Then I stopped.
Hmm,remember the guy I deeply liked before? and I think I might still like him now.I happened to see his ex's paintings,(I really didnt know his ex drew too)and I feel that I'm so sucky at drawing,those paintings I drew are so so mediocre.and I dont think I can be as good as her.After I came back,I've been asking ppl how long a person will forget or get over another person whom she/he deeply likes.It does take time.
So I want to get out here,avoid meeting anyone I know...I hate this though,hate every time I have a problem and can not fix it I want to escape.And when I really got a chance to leave here,to go far,far away from here and I so so much treasured this chance...I just lost it.
Did you ever have this feeling?
Someone says God might be a girl,she likes to joke around and maybe also has temper....
Okay,now you know how I am doing recently.
I now can not go on my story...tears are out...
So ,mabye later...
Still I'm happy to back here again.Dont have to hide my feelings here and dont have to pretend nothing ever happened on me. |
| | Posted 5/14/2007 8:38 AM - 38 Views - 8 eProps - 4 comments
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